I am seriously battling for motivation at the moment. The reason I understand but the solution eludes me. I know what I want to do with my life but I can’t find a way to turn it into a profession or at least do something related that won’t mean taking a serious plummet in our finances. I guess this is just the poor dad talking, the dad who is scared of risk, the dad who feels himself falling into his father shoes and spending a long life in the rat race.

I hate those people, I hate those concepts and yet despite my best efforts so far, I am becoming them. It is frustrating and depressing and I don’t know how to get around the bills, the career expectations, the way we have been told it should be done.

I am not that person, I have so many dreams and desires and yet I can’t find a way to live them. Life is hard but I have always said and believed that it shouldn’t be, you are doing something wrong if it is, yet I am completely guilty of failing to listen to my own advice. Human nature is amazing isn’t it.