Posts tagged Life

How to say goodbye

Oct 28th

Posted by Doron Dusheiko in Me, My Life and the Universe

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Well I don’t have any prescriptive advice, nor can I completely say that I have, but closure was obtained. The means was controversial but the result was extraordinary. I went to a John Edwards crossing-over kinda person and ensured that I was as sceptical as possible, even though I am not.

To say that the “coming” was accurate is a complete understatement. Names, places, emotions, histories, events current and past and everything in between reared their presence. It could only have been real and the amazing feeling that I had that I am being watched over was quite something, even for an atheist like me.

Since that day, I am not devastated to visit the graveyard, nor am I unable to reflect deeply on what could have been. The reason for this is that once the physical realisation that they are not actually gone, but merely physically departed, has set in, ones sadness is somewhat subdued due to the knowledge of their presence. In essence, they are still there, not just passively, but actively watching over you.

The replacement on the other hand, is much harder to come to terms with.

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Why?

Sep 27th

Posted by Doron Dusheiko in Me, My Life and the Universe

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Why is always a loaded question. Why assumes there is a why but why must there be. What if you can’t believe without a why. What if you cant understand without a why. And why cant you.

If all reasons, all why’s were obvious and available, there would be no need for and no ability to evolve. Why should drive us, but shouldn’t hinder us. Why should provoke us, but shouldn’t excuse us. Why should not agree with us, but should’t create false illusions.

Why oh why!

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What music means to me

Mar 28th

Posted by Doron Dusheiko in Me, My Life and the Universe

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“I’ll never forget you“. Those haunting words that echo through my grey matter on all but the least inspiring moments of life. Its without the music that I would cease, its my core, its my soul, its not just a matter of beats or melodies, its about the compromise of life, the ridiculous reasons for everything, the joy and sorrow.

I treasure those electronic sounds to a level of pure infatuation because without them I would not know how to define myself. I think in terms of memorable song moments and indulge in the richness of its symphony. It gives me that adrenalin rush that I need to calm my intelligence and to sober up to the realisation that I have to act like everyone else.

How could I live without it.

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